Monthly Archives: December 2015

Before & After

Dec 24, 2015 | Posted by in Life Before | 0

There will always be a “before” and an “after” now. Before: our whole new lives were ahead of us. The house. Sunrises in the guest room. Projects. Painting. Talking, laughing, sharing. Learning about living together. Building a life together. Now there is only “After.” After the illness. After the stroke. Unknowns. Fear. Pain. Sadness. Hope? I don’t know. Well, yes, I do…there IS hope. I just don’t know what to hope for. I am afraid to hope for too much. I am afraid to hope for anything but that he doesn’t bleed in his brain due to the blood thinners. I fear that I if I hope for anything beyond that, it will be too much, and I will jinx it. Jinx his recovery. That I will go into his room today and find a setback, or worse. Another stroke. I live in fear of that every day. Every moment.Read more …