Monthly Archives: January 2016

Punch Drunk

Jan 30, 2016 | Posted by in Kinky Stuff | 0

I’m sitting at V and E’s kitchen table, eating scrambled eggs that he cooked for me and poking in an absent way at the tender spot on my upper arm. His daughter sits across from me, chattering happily.  I think about how strange this is, to be sitting here, part of his family, while only last night he had been punching me in the arms, legs and chest while I tried to suppress my yelps so as not to wake his wife and child. Strange and wonderful. But strange. I’m still adjusting to these new relationships – the one with him, the one with his wife, and the one in which I am part of their family, at least peripherally. But more on that later. This night, not more than fifteen minutes before we began to roll about and tussle on the couch, V and I had been having aRead more …

Chameleon

Jan 28, 2016 | Posted by in Kinky Stuff, Relationship Stuff | 2

I have a daily task given to me by V: to update my blog with a “kitten” (hentai catgirl) in the homepage widget that you may have noticed in the sidebar. Those of you that followed me from Kink & Poly may remember W’s, Ad’s and my foray into “pet” play – there was Onyx, my show pony, and Topaz, my wild pony. We had a lot of fun with my ponies. Onyx, in particular, was born directly out of W’s and my dynamic, a melding of two distinct kinks into one shared by both of us. I loved bringing Onyx out for W; she personified a part of me that – prior to Onyx – I had never allowed to come out.  She gave me the freedom to preen and show-off, to prance and dance and to feel pretty and be an exhibitionist. W loved this about Onyx, andRead more …

A New Day

Jan 24, 2016 | Posted by in Being Poly, Sinful Sunday | 11

Sinful Sunday is all about the image…but, for me, it’s also about a moment in time, captured for eternity (or as long as the internet lasts…) and it tells a story…perhaps gives a snapshot of only a moment, or of a whole new life… For as long as Molly’s Daily Kiss has run the Sinful Sunday meme, I’ve been posting to it…not every week, but more often than not. You can see many of those images over on Kink & Poly – Sinful Sunday. I’ll eventually create a list here of the specific posts with links to them, but for now, if you’re interested, you can explore the category over there. Today’s Sinful Sunday is – as is so much in this new space – a new beginning. My first Sinful Sunday since…everything changed. And how things have changed! Yep that’s me, curled up on V’s couch, in Hello KittyRead more …

On Being Owned

Jan 23, 2016 | Posted by in Relationship Stuff | 4

I’ve talked about ownership and being owned a few times over the years over on Kink & Poly, what it meant to W and what it meant to me, within the context of our relationship. I think I distilled it down to its essence pretty well in “Owning My Sexuality as an Owned Slut,” as my sexuality was where W owned me the most. This is what I said there (originally in response to a thread on Fetlife that asked how you “prove” your sluthood – a stupid question, but one that actually made me think about what not means to call oneself a “slut” if you are owned.) I consider my sexuality to be “owned” by my BDSM partner. That is one of the tenets of W’s and my relationship. But, I do consider “owning my sexuality,” owning my identity as a sexual woman, with needs and desires ofRead more …

Turning Corners

Jan 22, 2016 | Posted by in Being Poly, Everyday Jade, Life Before | 9

I’m feeling some need to bring you, my dear readers, up-to-date on my life. I have received so many kind notes, emails and comments, and I feel truly blessed by the kindness of strangers, and those not so strange, alike. I am humbled by it, to be truthful. I know most of you that followed K&P are now aware of the tragedy that befell our little triad last year. And some of you have seen as I’ve stumbled forward, one halting step at a time, into a new life. It was not the one I had chosen, and I can also say that it wasn’t the one that I wanted, although “wanting” is a moving target. Does wanting this life now mean that I’m glad I don’t have the other? Does being happy now mean I’m happy without W? I don’t think so, but I still struggle with these feelingsRead more …

Wherever you go, there you are

Jan 18, 2016 | Posted by in Everyday Jade | 7

I think I’m supposed to say something profound now. I mean, I’m back, right?  Here am I in the blogging world again… Sort of, anyway. Welcome to my new home on the web, by the way. It’s not very flashy, in fact it’s pretty stripped down, and I have a lot of maintenance to do, as I’m sure you’ll notice if you click on any of the links. At the moment I’m trying to decide if I should bring over any of the content from the various memes that I’ve participated in from K&P, or if I’ll leave it there. I’m sure it’ll be a long, drawn-out debate with myself. It’s still hard to be over there at K&P, still painful to look at everything, to see everything…him, his smile, our joy, the life we built, our happiness…and be confronted again by all that I have lost. So, that partRead more …