After my last post I had some photo organizing to do, unrelated to 2016, but none-the-less I ended up going through a whole lot of images from last year, and I had a realization: there was a lot of laughter in the past year. There were also many good times, a fuckton of joy and play, silliness and love and friendship. Yes, there’s been a lot of sad in me, and it’s caused me to act out many times in ways that I am not proud of…but a little perspective is perhaps in order, too.
I’m really, really hard on myself. If I don’t act in all ways in compassion, in love, in kindness and with good intent, I am convinced that I am a horrible person and believe I am undeserving of love.
The truth is, I have been ugly and small-minded at times. I have felt anger at those whom I love and that love me, and lashed out. I have been sharp and prickly and difficult. But I have also felt love, and joy, and been compassionate and fair-minded and open-hearted. I need to remind myself of that, and to remember the good as well as the bad.
To that end I am posting a pictorial retrospective of this past year. So that I can revisit this space to remind myself, when I am feeling dark, that it’s not always that way. There is sunlight. There are smiles. There is love.