Day 8 – Connections

Today’s prompt for Insta’s #DearJune is connection. I love the prompt. There are so many ways I can go with this. But…not in my Insta (this is the ongoing, internal, debate I have: make a Pieces-of-Jade Insta? But what about my daughter and other vanilla people who now follow me?) Forging those connections, and then keeping them separate, is fucking hard. It’s why I mostly stopped doing it with friends and sister. I fucking HATE having to cover up. And I SUCK at it.

I’ve been pretty open on my FB. I’m pretty sure most of anyone who friends me knows I am poly. But this other thing…kink…  No. I have a lot of friends that accept me as poly, and even bisexual, but I just can’t be out there as kinky. It’s NOT that I am ashamed of what I do. It’s that I don’t feel comfortable sharing my sex life with others. I don’t feel I should.That part of my life is private.

But when a lot of topics that I might explore – for instance this topic of connections – lead me down a path toward my kink relationships, things I can discuss here…I can’t share it there. At least under my vanilla account.

It’s a conundrum. But I’m writing goddamnit! (Almost) Every. Damn.Day.

 

Comments

  1. Jupiter Grant

    Yes, it’s hard having to maintain multiple personas. I agree with you, though, when it comes to one’s sex life there is, certainly for me, a clear demarcation of what I’m willing to share with Facebook friends, work colleagues and family.
    Your post is really thoughtful.

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    1. Jade Post author

      Thank you. Writing here is part of the process for me, of understanding the why of what I do. And when I hear others confirming similar feelings…it helps to know I’m not the only one feeling this way.

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