Author Archives: Jade

June 28 – An Accounting

It’s not the end of the “Every Damn Day in June” challenge, but it is the end of my food challenge, and I am happy to say that I did pretty well. I wasn’t 100% by any means, but I was about 85 – 90%. It did make me stop and think about every food choice I made, and many, many times I made better decisions. Or, in certain specific cases, I chose to eat something that was on my list, knowing there would be consequences, but making that choice consciously, not just putting food in my mouth because it tastes good, and maybe trading off somewhere else. We’ll see how/if this new awareness  continues. I do know that without the aegis not to eat it, nightly ice cream will be a hard thing to resist. One thing that was really hard for me was no fast food. I don’t likeRead more …

June 27 – Writing Under Duress

I am beset with technical challenges. Tonight, while I tried to charge my external keyboard that I use with my tablet, I decided to use my laptop instead. Have you ever been on your  computer while someone else, a technician maybe, took control for a few minutes? Yeah, it was like that. All of sudden my mouse is moving everywhere, windows are opening and closing in my browser, my mouse is completely out of my control. It was like a poltergeist in my computer. I have no idea what was going on. I typed out a panicky text to V (OMG what if Russians are using my computer to spread pro-Trump propaganda?? [I really can’t think of anything worse than that]) but he’s already abed, so I turned it off and am hoping it was just some weird fluke. Meanwhile, now I’m here laying in bed typing with an on-screenRead more …

June 26 – #amwriting

Jun 26, 2018 | Posted by in #SOSS, Every Damn Day in June, Uncategorized | 3

I had it all planned out, my evening, my writing. I had a topic in mind, I had time to myself to do it, I was even going to have myself a “writing date” somewhere to be determined, but certainly not at home. Do some pre-writing at work, as I’ve been able to do the past few days; leave work at 4:45; get to my hair appointment at 5:15; find a nice little wine bar at 7:30; write sexy smutty dirty stuff till 9:30,;be home by 10 and in bed doing a little reading by 11. You know what they say bout the best laid plans. First my coworker didn’t make it in again today, so rather than poking around in my head and playing with words a little bit throughout the day, I was scrambling to get both our jobs done. Then, at about noon, I realized that –Read more …

June 25 – Basement

Jun 25, 2018 | Posted by in Every Damn Day in June, Kinky Stuff | 3

The first scene I ever did with W was in his grungy, city basement. It was my first taste of truly “dirty” play…like, on the floor, in sawdust and dirt and grime, among power tools and hardware, open beams, dark, spooky corners, chains and wood and a drain in the floor. He tied me to support beams that had been there since the house was built in 1903, shoved me in the old coal storage room, closed me in a makeshift “cage” that had a rusty lock and (I am sure) a spider or two. He pissed on me down there and hosed me off after, he fucked me with various implements and on my hands and knees with his cock, he tied me in a million different predicaments. I always wore heels, even there, and actually had heels we designated as “basement” shoes, because in the basement there wasRead more …

June 23 – #SOSS – The First

Jun 23, 2018 | Posted by in #SOSS, Every Damn Day in June, Memes & Prompts | 4

I am so thoroughly enjoying writing again. Writing for writing’s sake. But I don’t kid myself for a minute that if I didn’t “have” to, that I would be writing every day. (Thank you, Hyacinth, for the kick in the ass!!) I do need a push to get started. Like a kid on a bicycle, right? Or maybe a better metaphor would be a stalled car that you need to push and pop the clutch on to get it going. Yeah, much more evocative image, and hell, truer to life. I’m closer to an old beater car than I am to an innocent child. The other thing that has happened because I am writing more is that I am also reading others’ writings more. I have a few tried-and-true blogs I read, that come to me in my inbox, people I know or feel like I know because I haveRead more …

June 21 – A Learning Curve

Jun 21, 2018 | Posted by in Every Damn Day in June, Everyday Jade, Uncategorized | 0

I suck at conflict resolution. I didn’t realize that until recently, though. I thought, because there was so little conflict in my marriage, in my relationship with Adam, and in my relationship with W, that that meant I was super good at resolving things in a healthy manner. Go me! And I believe I also thought the inverse of that: because there have been conflicts in my relationship with V, there’s something wrong with it. But that’s not exactly true. The truth is that (I have only recently come to realize) there were few conflicts in my previous long-term relationships because my way of “resolving” a potential conflict was to either, a) run away from it, or b) give in so there was no conflict. I knew I was conflict-averse. That’s a fact of being me: I go to any lengths to avoid conflicts. The realization was that avoiding allRead more …

June 20 – Release

Jun 20, 2018 | Posted by in Every Damn Day in June, Fictions, Wicked Wednesday | 1

Her Story She trembles on the edge, biting her lip in an agony of straining muscles, strangled breath, quivering limbs. She wants it so badly, craves that fall over the edge into ecstasy, after the delicious torment of the climb up, after the pleasure has rolled and twisted like a ball inside of her, dragging her up and up and into this space, to this moment, where she hangs for an eternity. She pants and her fingers dance over her clit, stroking, circling, teasing, then pressing hard as she feels the pressure begin to build. She backs off deliberately when she knows the release is inevitable: stalling, stalling. Teasing; tormenting; holding herself back from the edge. This is the place, the moment, she loves, almost as much as she loves the actual release, that sweet explosion, when it comes. Holding it back is an exquisite torment. Up and down thatRead more …

June 19 – I Blame Him

Jun 19, 2018 | Posted by in Every Damn Day in June, Kinky Stuff | 2

Last night, while writing about tasks and obedience and edging-as-punishment and paying the piper when I’ve disobeyed, I got pretty wound up. Earlier in the evening, V had instructed me to think of him at least twice while I was out with a friend – to think of me in my devotion pose, with him behind me, ready to push his cock into my ass. It’s a compelling image, and one grounded in reality (except for one detail.) A couple of weeks ago he had pulled me down off the spanking bench where he’d had me sitting, facing him, legs spread, so he could use the wicked sticks on the insides of my thighs while he made me hold Baldy on my clit. Delicious, vicious torment, made more torturous by the fact that (of course) he insisted that I not orgasm. Once I was on the floor, he pushed meRead more …

June 18 – I Lost My Hard-On

Jun 18, 2018 | Posted by in Every Damn Day in June, Kinky Stuff, Memes & Prompts | 0

The other evening I hinted at having to do penance for not doing one of my daily tasks. Part of that penance, when V invokes it, sometimes involves that lovely buttplug I pictured, or rather, any of my plugs (I’ve got a few.) Another part involves repeatedly edging until I finish the unfinished task. I’m not allowed to come during this time, nor, usually, afterward. It’s not an easy thing to endure: being told what to do in a very authoritarian way, being taken to task, having to accept consequences for my wrong-doing, are all hot buttons for me. So usually, by the time I am on the 4th or 5th round of grinding Baldy against my clit while I’m on my knees, trying desperately to finish the task – with the addition of a plug in my ass making me squirm – I practically have to rip the vibeRead more …