Everyday Jade

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Triptych – Yellow (Edited: Oops!)

Jun 30, 2018 | Posted by in Everyday Jade, Sinful Sunday | 14

The first Sunday of the month is always a theme for Sinful Sunday. I usually miss it (go figure, right?) and I would have this month too, except that I happened to read Rebel’s oh-so-helpful “meme guide.” I love that thing, I truly do. (It’s at the end of her #SOSS posts.) Anyway. I had a couple things in mind, but then today I had some time to myself to download the pics from our Vegas trip that our friend Allan had taken. This guy is an amazing photographer. After seeing a few of them, I decided I had to do a triptych of some of them. These are in his “yellow” series. At Red Rocks Canyon Park, at sunset.   Edit: Ah hell, I can’t even get this right! It’s “Diptych” not “Triptych”! Oh well…here ya go, because I don’t have the time or patience to do it allRead more …

June 30 – Every. Damn. Day.

Jun 30, 2018 | Posted by in Every Damn Day in June, Everyday Jade | 2

Is it really the LAST day of June? The last day of this writing challenge? Like after a beloved book ends, I am feeling a little…bereft. How will I keep myself writing? I really thought it would be harder than it was. I thought I’d have to fight myself to write every day. And yes, there were days when I simply had nothing to say, or I was too tired to “write” or my brain was in empty mode when I got home or the idea of getting on the computer was just too hard to contemplate. But still, except for a very few exceptions, I did it. I sat here and wrote something. And, I wrote at work, in between all the things, instead of taking a 10 minute smoke break (okay there isn’t anybody (that I know of) that takes smoke breaks in my office, including me) butRead more …

June 28 – An Accounting

It’s not the end of the “Every Damn Day in June” challenge, but it is the end of my food challenge, and I am happy to say that I did pretty well. I wasn’t 100% by any means, but I was about 85 – 90%. It did make me stop and think about every food choice I made, and many, many times I made better decisions. Or, in certain specific cases, I chose to eat something that was on my list, knowing there would be consequences, but making that choice consciously, not just putting food in my mouth because it tastes good, and maybe trading off somewhere else. We’ll see how/if this new awareness  continues. I do know that without the aegis not to eat it, nightly ice cream will be a hard thing to resist. One thing that was really hard for me was no fast food. I don’t likeRead more …

June 27 – Writing Under Duress

I am beset with technical challenges. Tonight, while I tried to charge my external keyboard that I use with my tablet, I decided to use my laptop instead. Have you ever been on your  computer while someone else, a technician maybe, took control for a few minutes? Yeah, it was like that. All of sudden my mouse is moving everywhere, windows are opening and closing in my browser, my mouse is completely out of my control. It was like a poltergeist in my computer. I have no idea what was going on. I typed out a panicky text to V (OMG what if Russians are using my computer to spread pro-Trump propaganda?? [I really can’t think of anything worse than that]) but he’s already abed, so I turned it off and am hoping it was just some weird fluke. Meanwhile, now I’m here laying in bed typing with an on-screenRead more …

June 21 – A Learning Curve

Jun 21, 2018 | Posted by in Every Damn Day in June, Everyday Jade, Uncategorized | 0

I suck at conflict resolution. I didn’t realize that until recently, though. I thought, because there was so little conflict in my marriage, in my relationship with Adam, and in my relationship with W, that that meant I was super good at resolving things in a healthy manner. Go me! And I believe I also thought the inverse of that: because there have been conflicts in my relationship with V, there’s something wrong with it. But that’s not exactly true. The truth is that (I have only recently come to realize) there were few conflicts in my previous long-term relationships because my way of “resolving” a potential conflict was to either, a) run away from it, or b) give in so there was no conflict. I knew I was conflict-averse. That’s a fact of being me: I go to any lengths to avoid conflicts. The realization was that avoiding allRead more …

June 17 – The Heat is a Vampire

Jun 17, 2018 | Posted by in Being Poly, Every Damn Day in June, Everyday Jade | 0

The end of another weekend. I like my job, so it’s not dread that I feel about going in tomorrow (I’ve been in that job before) but I am…weary. I wish I could just stay home. Why don’t I have a life where I don’t have to work 8-5?? (Don’t answer; stupid question.) It’s been a good weekend. Full of good poly time, good time with V, good time with Ad. Got a few house things done, some walking done, some talking and cooking and brunching and enjoying life done. But it’s been so damned hot it feels like any kind of movement at all saps my energy and my will to move or engage. Every movement might be my last for awhile as I recup from the heat. Ad has been over since Saturday (two days in a row!) and it’s been mostly nice. Sometimes it’s been frustrating. LikeRead more …

June 12

Jun 13, 2018 | Posted by in Every Damn Day in June, Everyday Jade, Uncategorized | 2

I missed yesterday, obviously. I’m going to give myself a mulligan on this one though: there was so much going on at the conference, and I worked through it all, a full 13 hours, most of it on my feet. Even the awards banquet & reception was work. By the time threw myself into bed I was desperately wiped out. But not too wiped out to claim my “reward” ogasm for eating right the night before. Viper had sent me a video called “Restrained Cocksucker,” and I confess to getting quite turned on by the woman’s plight. The fact that V texted me the link with the note that he, too, had come to the video moments before, fueled my desire to stay awake long enough to orgasm. And then, oddly enough, I was wide awake and sorry that I had had to miss dessert at the banquet (I hadRead more …

June 10

Jun 11, 2018 | Posted by in Every Damn Day in June, Everyday Jade | 0

I’m writing but I’m really not writing. This is just to fulfill the terms of my agreement to complete the challenge. My day: standing for 5 solid hours doing not-my-job that I was voluntold to do talking talking talking to strangers talking more turns out I’m good at it, but fuck it’s exhausting sticking with my food challenge til dinner time; choosing to go off it for coconut crisp shrimp and chocolate lava cake. I only had about two bites of each, but it will be worth the buttplug later hearing about Adam having dates and adventures of which I’m not a part of. I’m happy about that. I wonder if I’d be happy if V was. having really good discussion with two women from my office at dinner Some amazing photos my back hurts my people meter is over full And now, bedtime.

June 9

Jun 10, 2018 | Posted by in Every Damn Day in June, Everyday Jade | 0

So yeah, done with the cutesy title for the moment. It’s the 9th of June and I have written EVERY DAMN DAY. Yeah, I’m patting myself on the back. Even if it’s only 1/3 of the way through June. So yeah, here I am in San Diego. This isn’t the view from my room but it might as well be. I have a balcony. A BALCONY! And no one to bend me over the rail and fuck me on it. <sad> Otherwise it’s a good trip so far. I… got roped into having dinner with my colleague, and it was actually okay! In fact I like his wife. stretched outside my comfort level and initiated conversation with several people. met the cute “Wellness” instructor and had some good convo with him made good food choices. I get to have an orgasm tonight! There’s other stuff, but wine and tequila andRead more …

Jun 8, 2018 | Posted by in Every Damn Day in June, Everyday Jade | 0

I actually managed to get up and stay up at 6am this morning. Now, I was at V’s, and his alarm goes off at 5:15 or 5:30, and we lay there and snuggle and slowly wake up until he leaves the the bed between 5:45 and 6, so it’s a bit different than when I’m home alone at my house. When I try to do that “wake up slow” routine when I’m alone, I just fall back to sleep. At his house, for some reason, it’s easier. But still. This is the first time in months that I’ve actually got up and done my whole morning routine: Drink water. Do stretches. Practice mindfulness/do my devotion. Take my pills. Start my day. With this writing challenge, I want to add morning writing to that as well. Today I left V’s early so I could get in to my office and write,Read more …