Tag Archives: Adam

I think I can.

Jul 20, 2017 | Posted by in Being Poly, Everyday Jade | 2

I think I can do this. No, I really do. I think I can be happy. I think I can be content. I think I can accept what is, without pining for what is not. There’s been many times in the past – what’s it been, almost 2 years? – that I haven’t been sure of that. That I’ve doubted and wondered “why” and wished I was anywhere, in any other relationship(s), than the one(s) I am in. That it was all too hard, too complicated, too not-what-I-wanted out of my relationship(s). Out of my life. Sometimes I still feel that way. I love Viper and would be devastated not to have him in my life and I adore and crave the D/s dynamic we have created; I still love and appreciate Adam as much as I ever did (if not more so), even after almost 18 years; and IRead more …

Mountains, Rocks, Rolling Stones & Hummingbirds

Jan 28, 2017 | Posted by in Being Poly | 2

Adam is a rock. Warren was a rolling stone. V says he is a mountain. I’m a hummingbird. I have always said Adam is my rock. Stable and solid, safe and secure, but not immovable. It takes a good bit of effort, but I can nudge him this way and that, and even pick him up and carry him about if needed. He’s always there for me to fly home to when I need solidity and security. Warren was a rolling stone. Secure and strong, too, but more easily moved, and with the added bonus of being able/willing to initiate movement – to roll – on his own. Viper is, in his own words, a mountain. He’s the immovable center of the world around which his wife and daughter – and now me – live their lives, returning to succor in his steadfastness, knowing he cannot be moved or shaken.Read more …

A Birthday Weekend in the Smokies

(Ed. note: This was started the weekend of my birthday weekend, when we went to Gatlinburg. As usual, life has intervened in me getting this posted in a timely fashion, but, well, better late than never?) It’s 1 a.m. here, and I’m sitting at my little round table-for-two in front of the patio window, the door open so I can hear the breeze soughing through the trees, sipping on a rumchata and vodka. I just walked in about a half hour ago from a perfectly lovely weekend in Gatlinburg, Tennessee, with Adam and a group of friends at a cabin (they included V and his wife, E.) It’s so peaceful here. I thought all the way home that I’d be sad and lonely, when we finally got home and Adam went over to the Big Condo and V was home with his wife. But instead as soon as I walkedRead more …

A Coddiwomple Sunday

Aug 4, 2016 | Posted by in Life Before, Memes & Prompts, Scavenger Hunt | 3

Adam and I have re-established what used to be a staple of our free time, when W was alive: the Weekend Ramble. It starts with an idea, a curiosity, an inspiration, and goes from there. I can’t adequately express how much I enjoyed those days with my Guys, and how deeply I have missed them. I am a true Scavenger Hunter at heart, whether that means creating the Calendar Game, bringing the Alphabet Challenge, Rope on the Run and Boobies & Bondage concepts from Fetlife to my blog, playing along with the 12 Days of Christmas, trying every local pizza joint, or junk shopping and yard and estate sale-ing for that perfect side table to refurbish. And, of course, participating in the Scavenger Hunt here. But more than that, it was an opportunity to simply let the day flow around us; to allow serendipity to be our guide; to share inRead more …

February 12 & 13 – Fork & a Three-Way

Feb 15, 2016 | Posted by in 2016 February Photofest, Being Poly, Kinky Stuff | 0

Yep, I’ve done it again, I missed posting my daily February Photofest pics. Once again, however, I took pictures! I just didn’t post them. I’m still figuring out my blogging/writing routine. I’m figuring out my life routine… Anyway, in a few pictures, in a few words, here are the last few Photofest pics… February 12 – Fork   There were several images I wanted to create for this prompt. I had visions of poking soft female flesh under the table…of snapping a clandestine photo while the waiter and patrons had their heads turned during my pre-Valentine’s Day date with V… It didn’t happen because of lack of opportunity. I thought of looping the tines through my rings at some point during our date and snapping a pic…but we didn’t end up in a place where that was possible. But early on – during our dinner – we snapped this picture.Read more …

Day 10 – Sharpies

Feb 11, 2016 | Posted by in 2016 February Photofest | 4

This post is a little late, because I was up late creating the image that is the “official” February 10th image, and also it took me awhile to find the images that I was originally going to use when V told me that “Sharpie” was my prompt for the day. Obviously this wasn’t something I could do at work. ;-) Quite a bit of fun was had at work though, as V used the proposed image that he wanted – and the threat to enlist a friend of mine to “assist” with the photo-making and photo-taking – to keep me anxious and overheated all day. In the end, Adam assisted me, laughing the whole time as I told him of the day’s back-and-forth between V and I. I’m happy to have him engaging in play with us. He used to love this role with W and I – “Devil’s Assistant”Read more …

Turning Corners

Jan 22, 2016 | Posted by in Being Poly, Everyday Jade, Life Before | 9

I’m feeling some need to bring you, my dear readers, up-to-date on my life. I have received so many kind notes, emails and comments, and I feel truly blessed by the kindness of strangers, and those not so strange, alike. I am humbled by it, to be truthful. I know most of you that followed K&P are now aware of the tragedy that befell our little triad last year. And some of you have seen as I’ve stumbled forward, one halting step at a time, into a new life. It was not the one I had chosen, and I can also say that it wasn’t the one that I wanted, although “wanting” is a moving target. Does wanting this life now mean that I’m glad I don’t have the other? Does being happy now mean I’m happy without W? I don’t think so, but I still struggle with these feelingsRead more …